Secondary Friend

I'm pretty sure that's what I am. Like I know my friends are there for me and everything, but I feel like I'm not anyone's first choice. Actually I'm pretty certain of that. I should be happy I have friends, right? They're good friends too. I just want to feel special, you know, like everyone else in the world. But in order to feel special, there has to be unspecial people, right? Well I guess I'll be unspecial if it makes someone else feel better, but I'm still jealous. I dont know. Maybe I'm just full of crap.